I had always pursued nursing as a career, but when I took Anatomy and Physiology in school, I quickly remembered that intense science and math are not my strong suits. I'm not horrible, but I don't excel, either. When faced with the immensely difficult requirements of nursing school, with three YOUNG children and no spouse to help out when times grow bleak, I had a deep feeling of dread in my heart. I knew it wasn't my path.
I've been waiting, praying and researching for nearly three years to decide which career pathway to take. I've been out of my mind, crying out to God for answers, fretting daily about this. There were many times I felt I would never "find myself" or my purpose in life, only to waste a hard-earned education.
Not any more!
I feel like the answer has been staring me in the face for years. I love children. I enjoy being around people. I have a knack for instruction. I love learning. I enjoy helping others.
I've thought of it many times, but never really made the committed leap. My mom was a teacher, and an incredible one at that - there was a part of me that looked up to her with a reverential awe, not feeling "up to" that level. Not feeling competent enough or smart enough to direct the education of 30 some-odd kids. Not feeling able to face parents in conferences. Since I've been through so much in the last few years, I have found the strength I needed to face these challenges head on without fear of failure.
I've registered for school at a 4 year university that has a satellite campus in the area so that I can attend without being too far from my boys, and take some courses online as well, as I have been doing this year. Making my own schedule with school has been so freeing, and I am able to work during my peak productive hours.
I am thoroughly looking forward to this next chapter of my life, and to a new goal to conquer! :)