Just when you think you have it all figured out, life sneaks up on you and WHAM! Another life-changing surprise to deal with and adjust to.
This week has been spent largely trying to accommodate a couple of new dimensions of my schedule, and deep in thought about my future. Mostly, how miserable it can be to live a two dimensional life.
Everything looks better on paper. Dates (especially - lol), jobs, to-do lists... even marriages. "Married with three kids, a successful husband and a house with a white picket fence and a dog" can be the most miserable h-e-double-hockey sticks that anyone could ever live in.
This week, while thinking about the depth and richness of relationships, I began to have some new thoughts as a result of my current circumstances. It has been a virtual awakening for me, truly praying about and considering the quality of each relationship I have, and which ones I want to devote more time and energy to, as well as those I don't.I am looking for connections that are lasting, deep and true. They are what I would consider 3-d relationships. They have substance, they bring great joy and they endure great sorrow.
Then, there are the 2-d relationships we foster with hundreds, if not thousands of individuals that we encounter on a yearly basis. The ones that drain us and we feel like we are having to "put on a show" for.
The worst of all of these relationships are the 1-d relationships. Usually from those who want something from you, perpetually. They don't give anything... they just take. Those are the toxic ones I wish to avoid, and to learn to stand up for myself to protect my heart from such relationships (which I am a sucker for) is absolutely crucial to my heart's emotional fitness.
The same principle applies to our day-to-day activities, as well.
What are you investing your time with?
What are the levels of quality associated with each? Do they enrich your life, or just kill time?
The last few days have been wonderful - I've kept up on my housework and felt an overall sense of achievement and joy, despite the crazy that keeps re-occurring. It's inevitable in life. People let you down. People stand you up. People will disappoint you thousands and thousands of times.
God never will disappoint us, and he created rich and wonderful things for us to fill our time with here in this life, if we will only take him up on it. I hope to continue to re-direct my attention from the things that hold me down to the wonderful blessings that are scattered throughout my life and enjoy the present in all its fullness.